A turn in the right direction...

Well, as some of you might know, I was in counseling for everything that has happened to me and for my 'condition'. Today, I finally made it to my last session. It was great. I left the office much better than when I went in and just a little more hopeful. If anything, I hope that in the future I smile more. True smiles. I have taken up more reading and photography and started cooking. It is crazy how little things can make a difference in a day's events. But everytime my shutter clicks I know I am closer to something. Everytime I absorb a new story or idea it is wonderful, and everytime my dinner doesn't come straight out of a drive-thru or frozen section I know I am closer to being able to complete everyday tasks. Everyday living has been hard lately, but I am going to figure this out. I have always been my own worst enemy and hardest critic. Now, it is time to step up and be my biggest fan, which let me say is going to be trying. It is time for me to get out in the world again and smile. So, if you see me drifting with what seems no direction, wake me up and tell me to smile. Because after I give you one of my classic fake ones, I will probably smile for real.

with that, I am out.