So, this entry is titled working out, up and down.
And here's why... when I started working out again this week, it forced me to realize that I can actually change a lot about myself. Not just my body. Working out has forced me to push myself again. These daily sessions have given me new goals and made me realize I am working towards something crucial. Exercise is helping me with my body, both physical and mental. After 3 miles going speeds that can make me want to cry, for more than one reason, I feel like a new person. It is hard to describe how happy you feel after a workout and not sound crazy or pathetic, but I do. And I feel it effecting my eating and sleep patterns, both of which have been in serious, dangerous states. (long pause...)
Hum, I feel I have lost my ability to write and to convey with earnest how important this change in my life could and will be. But I can say as I continue to work out, I will build up my body and spirit and tear down the things that have been holding me back. Sometimes, I forget that we don't know what others think or what they hold as truth in the back of their own minds. I, myself, have several misconceptions that I hide behind in my mind that no one knows of, even when I expect them to. These lies that I have spun as truths all these years are what I must take down. And in fact, the few times that I find myself running, I think they are what I am running to and from. And when I can run, they won't be there anymore. (pause...) If that makes sense.
Well, check back and watch how I track my progess in the NUMBERS section. And feel free to give a shout out about your favorite workout, health food, or theraputic venture. I know you see that COMMENT link.
Holla!